I wouldn't regret

So many things have been running through my mind for a period of time but since this would be exposed to the public, i decided to just say something which i consider short and my thoughts.

The past week hadn't been a smooth one, with a thing happening after another. Before i forget.... gotta thank Cheryl for the cookies hehe <3

Mum got some M&S candies for the weekend and yes being fatty me and my fatty brother, we finished the chocolate eclairs in a day. They were really good and got myself a box of strawverry and cream drops. They were really good.

Weekend passed like no other and today would be the fifth day i'm doing the housework, that includes sweeping, mopping, washing ALL the dishes, washing the clothes, drying them and other necessities. Reached home at 6 after school and lunch today and now i'm dead tired..... so housework.... at night since there's finally a day's break tmr yayers ↖(^▽^)↗

Seen enough heard enough.... and i've had enough. So many things made me feel horrible and horribly horrible.

Got myself a new cover for free worth $39.90 today hehe it's really pretty! Leaving all the photos at the bottom and i have no idea why my phone rotated them.

So..... back to why i have so much to blog today...... came to know about all those nasty remarks and really?? People are always like "haters gonna hate" and all i have to say is that we shouldn't be bothered with them. The more we think about those things they've said and how much they hate you... why not let them go and move on? Yeah i know it's not easy, but people still do them everywhere. Yeah it sure hurts, but i've had so much i wouldn't, and i give up bothering with people like them. Thanks haters, for making me stronger and allowing me to know that i've safely endured all your shit.

I'm so tired of everything, physically, emotionally and mentally. Though times are hard but i guess we should get over them with happy things which make our day. Little things like a hug from your friend could brighten up your day. Sometimes, pouring your heart out to someone would help too. Thanks for being by my side all the time, i won't name you but you guys know who you are.

Someone told me "i guess you're suffering from depression ya" HAHAHAHAHA how sarcastic.

I admit i may be oversensitive at times and that i would overthink.... but who doesn't?? And seriously, if you people out there hate soemone so much, i suggest you go tell that person (it might not have to be verbal, it could be through letters too, and PEN DOWN YOUR DAMN NAME) i would rather know who you are and why you hate someone so much, there's definitely a reason to it, some people prefer to say "i have no reason for hating so and so" but REALLY? REALLY?? I suppose it's pure jealousy then. Sometimes yeah people get annoying and you just hate them, but i dont see any reason for you to just hate on someone and make them an outcast and esp, make them feel like some fucktard. And i can't stand it when people get bullied, not just physically but in any other way, like doing something to their bags or whatever. Haha i get rough with words and i swear 90% of the criticisms i've made are just for the sake of making them, i don't usually mean it. Now you know. And i was just saying, not that i've received the above mentioned (the bullying part i mean).

It's ridiculous how people are so full of themselves and think that they should go around hurting others in any sort. Wait till you experience them. Like i always say, "i believe in Karma" because what goes around DOES come around. 

I've received comments like "you're ah lian" (female gangster??), "you're so step" , "you're so emo". Honestly, i AM NOT emo.... i just have a negative perspective of life and step?? How? In what way?? And since "ah lian" has been a norm, i just i'll just accept the way things are and continue accepting.

School again

Finally a post on today's events, today was pretty short.... 

Rewind back to last night...... 

When i was preparing to start doing my assignments at about 10 last night, there was this piercing pain in my abdomen area and it felt like someone was stabbing me in the stomach. I went to the toilet in case shit was gonna happen and it did. Vomited twice and had diarrhea (went to the toilet 4 times in a row...) and i felt like i was dying. My entire body was literally drained of energy and the pain was a killer, it was soooo bad i wanted to just die. Felt so sick and was hesitating whether i should turn up for school today. 

Eventually, i turned up for school cause i didn't want to miss lessons and came to realise that today's lessons weren't that important afterall. It's okay, at least i was safe and shit didn't happen again. 

Miss Chai totally understands us and reasoned that we wouldn't be able to learn anything new since exams were over and we "did quite well". 

Ms Chai: How many of you are not happy with your results (English)? 
*about half the class rose their hands*
Ms Chai: How many of you wants to have English lesson?
*none of us rose our hands*
Ms Chai: Ironic right? hahaha I'm gonna let you guys watch a movie. It's Simon Birch. 

AND SIMON BIRCH IS A REALLY GOOD MOVIE AND IT'S SO FUNNY!!! I totally died laughing in class. We had Chinese and Social Studies before recess but i was so tired i fell asleep during SS again and yes i feel guilty towards Mrs Tan but i'm ALWAYS tired so..... i know that isn't an excuse but i already slept. English was after recess and followed by Biology but we Physics girls had a free period and i suspect it's a mistake done by the school. Oh well, at least i thought i spent my free period wisely. Last lesson before school ended was Elective Literature and they spent a full hour lecturing us and going through the exam scripts again. 

Managed to complete all the KunMing stuff with my team mates during the meeting again yay. But now we're gonna have to get going with the activities planned ahead for the kids in KunMing. Hope we're gonna have loads of fun there! Getting really excited!! :P

16 October '13

Yeah, we were supposed to have a school holiday cause it was promotion day but we headed for Temasek Poly and once again, i went for the Business course. Previously for my June holidays work attachment, i was sent to Nanyang Poly to attend the business course there too. Yeah we spent about 3-4 hours at Temasek Poly. Although the experience was a short one, it was pretty good and it totally increased my interest towards taking business courses when i graduate. 

One of the lecturers there decided to give out chocolates which she brought back from Australia recently and the classmate beside me got one and i was there like "OMG CAN I HAVE THE CHOCOLATES?!?! :"( " and yeah, she's really nice and offered me her chocolate yay! 

Yup, this was the chocolate. It tasted really good!!

The day ended pretty fast and it was around 7.15pm when i reached home but received the news of granny yan being sent to the hospital. Yup, hope she's gotten a lot better (she's been discharged and is now at home resting). Mum told me she couldn't lift her left arm up and awwww man my heart fell cause she's one of those who i really depend on and care for. I can say i'm closer to her compared to the rest of my family members. Get well soon and LOVE YOU ah poh! :*

Black ball

So we had to return to sch today and tomorrow's a public holiday, sian ji pua sia really. Sch was quite redundant though, but on second thoughts... maybe not, cause trigo -.- Really really dread Trigo, it's so irritating but we learnt graphs today yay! Really really love graphs. Today went by pretty fast and school was over in a flash of an eye, unlike usual school days when i would just doze off and lay on my table with my arms all over HAHAHA I'm such a lazy ass. 

We checked our CCA records today and everyone's really confused as to how many points the limit is and what number of points we should achieve in order to get distinction for CCA points. One thing i was really happy about was the CIP hours muahahaha 106.75 hours for me yayers. Okay shall stop gloating and get back to what i was about to say.

Went to parkway with Cheryl after school AGAIN, as usual la kay. And we decided to just walk to i12 since having subway twice a week is getting sickening. Yeah, TWICE A WEEK, the madness omg. Had lunch at Ramen Play and i guess it was one of the worst lunch i have ever had. 

Gene came at 4 cause she was released from sch at 3.20? Since I'm such a pig..... Ramen definitely wasn't enough to fill my stomach, so we went for Black Ball, yay, after so longgggg. 

So this is my bowl of desert yay, it's the signature dish, icy and grass jelly based. It's SOOOO GOOD. 

After the milk was down haha is it me or is the colour really cool? 

Gene's bowl of desert, signature dish too, cold and grass jelly 

Someone passed me this book out of a sudden in class and i was like "OMG i like this title!!" then to realise it was Haziqah's and yes I borrowed it from her hahah it's time i read a book anyw, it's been years since i read one. 

Flipped open the book and this was the first thing i saw, so..... ALL THE MORE I SHOULD READ IT HAHA

A photo to end the day and this post. (left to right: Gene, Cheryl, me hehe)

Bye people and will start blogging more often. my blog's so plain. 

Hey!

Seems like it's been years since i last blogged. I can still recall that the first time i started blogging was when i was Pri 4? that was 5 years ago.... How time flies, and yeap i'm back after 4 years of not blogging with a fresh new blog. HAHAHA  lost my old blog link, oh well.... 

10 more days till sch comes to an end WOOHOO, not forgetting that there's structured..... So, it seems like the year has almost come to an end. It feels like I'm promoting to sec 3 only next year though but no, i just finished my sec 3 life and EOYs. 

This year's definitely wasn't the most smooth-sailing one but really, it has left such a great impact on me and all i really have to say is that we have to cherish everyone around us and just live life to the fullest. Although most of the time I'm just so pessimistic about life and the people around me have turned immuned to me being the girl that swears too much and is probably most impolite girl they have seen. 

Coming back to why i decided to blog again, i have been thinking about creating a new one for months and it seems like today's the day that i actually am not lazy to create, so why not? And i guess that it's time i turn all my rants here cause it seems like I've been bothering everyone else on Twitter hahahah fml. 

Yeah,  guess that's the end for today's post. 

Wait.... saw this while i was scrolling through some pictures on google..... People should stop insulting the others and calling others 'fat' athough it seems like people are calling themselves fat. They turn to EDs because of the change in their mindsets. Make someone believe that they look okay, don't be that bastard who's gonna ruin someone's life.