2013 ♡♥

This month's been a busy one, so much catching up to do and i had to rush through a lot work during the past 1-2 weeks. I still have some work left on hand and yeah, though 2014 is approaching in approximately 2 hours, I'm gonna have to spend the remaining hours and the first few hours of 2014 finishing up my work. Tomorrow is my baby cousin's 1st birthday, hehehe HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA XIN!!! She has the same Mandarin name as me XD in the exact same Mandarin characters as well haha! Okay, gonna 'nag' and update on what I've been up to recently. 

Dinner @ Fish 7 Co. 

I went to Downtown East's Fish & Co. outlet a few nights before Christmas with my family for dinner hehe. Haven't had it for superrrrrrrrr long time and that was really refreshing! 

If I didn't catch the waitress wrongly, this is their fish chowder soup!! Really good!!! Did i mention i'm a souperholic? 

My parents shared this combo. If i remembered correctly, it's called the Seafood Combo 2. 

This was my portion, the New York Fish and Chips. The portion was really big i was so full after that.

Salted egg yolk is stuffed inside, and yeah i love it hehe.

TangYuan day!! 元宵节 ♡

I have no idea why photo is upside down but hehe i love glutinous rice balls. 

Caught up with my long lost friends and primary school tutor, that taught me for my entire primary school life. 

 

MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSSSS!!

Belated Merry Christmas guys, I know it's about a week late, but better now than never. 

Had dinner at Ajisen's. This was my share of Scallop Ramen.

It went with this gyoza side dish and a cup of iced lemon tea.

This was for dessert. Hehe green tea pancakes(??) with MY FAVOURITE HOKKAIDO MILK PUDDING. I LOVEEEEE IT.

28 Decemeber 2013: 305's class partehhhhhh 

30 december 2013:

Finally took a photo with this retard. He's finally FINALLY as tall as me hahahahah, we'll take another a year from now to compare the height difference again ;) 

Cut my hair today after like 235498201942543 years, 3.5 inches gone and somehow it still feels the sameeeeee.  

Created a video on Instagram: http://instagram.com/p/ilkyO2zXb7/, that was to thank everyone that has been with me but not enough to sum up everything. 

It's finally the time to blog on resolutions and everything that happened the entire year. I have about 1 hour left. damn. 

So, the starting of this year was really hectic and rocky. This year was definitely not a good one and was one of the worst I've had. Nevertheless, there's always things for me to learn from and when i grow up and look back, i know i will not regret the choices i'm about to make and those that i've made. Along the way, I'll be expressing a lot thoughts and words of advice. I'm warning that it's gonna be a long  longgggggggg post. You don't have to continue reading if you don't want to. Words for Cheryl:  Hey Cheryl, although i read your blog thoroughly, i definitely am writing mine originally and if words are repeated, i can say i didnt copy cause i dont remember what's written but i do remember what i SHOULD be doing hehe. 

Like I said, the start of the year was a rocky one. I'll be telling what happened not in detail but what happened, i don't care whether those who were involved are reading this, because everything's gonna be over in less than an hour. 

Yep, within the first month of school, I lost one of the most precious friendships i ever had, I'm not afraid to say this, but it was really one of the best, besides the one with some others (you guys know who you are and i'm not stating them so that i won't hurt anyone in the process). Back to what i started with, yeah, i treasured the friendship a lot and i never ever EVER thought i would lose it, and it all came down to be because of me, because of jealousy. 

Many of us tend to be jealous of our own best friends when we see others hanging around them and we don't want to lose our friends. But honestly, if your friendships are really really strong, nothing can break it, not even when a huge rock falls off the cliff and tries to break the walls of your friendship. Of course, there would be abrasions and some cracks, but it will definitely remain strong. 

That friend that i lost, she is one of the bestest friends one can ever ask for. She was always by my side, always there for me, she bombed so much money on my birthday, she did many many things for me and even 'risked' getting 'scolded' by me when i slept in class to wake me up. I loved her, obviously as a friend. I can't say i regret losing her because she's not who she is anymore. I turned her into someone who lost her innocence someone who broke into so many pieces she built such a strong wall around herself to protect herself. Although saying sorry is not enough, there is nothing more i can do. That 'anniversary' since our friendship died is coming in 2 weeks and all i can hope for is that she and her friends are able to have long-lasting friendships and that their studies will run smoothly next year and do well for O's. 

After that major incident, might not be major to others, but i definitely had a hard time getting over everything. The entire year had been a trauma, seeing her in school, outside, coincidences everywhere, i do get nervous and scared. At times i don't even know what i was thinking. Less than 3 months later, crucial things were coming in and i faced cases of other stuff betrayal and things got worse i didn't know how to handle them. I gotta thank the person who have always been by my side, supporting me and no you DID NOT fail to protect me, you did your best. Like i told you earlier on, i wouldn't have been able to survive well and cope with everything. Thank you for your ears, your heart, your love. 

Okay, i really wanna get over those shit now, i'm getting emotional here so yup. And it was not long ago before i found out that i actually trusted a person i should NEVER have. She tarnished many people's names including mine and she hurt me so many times, telling me things like what people did/said to me or whatever but ya. She used many innocent people's names and they had no idea what even happen. 

Okay, whatever it is, I'm gonna have to let the past go, for it will only haunt me and not do me any good at all. 

Firstly, never fall into the traps of jealousy, for jealousy kills, just like how curiosity kills the cat. Never ever, i repeat, never ever get jealous over small matters. They turn you into who you would never think you would be and can hurt the people around you. Watch your emotions and learn to control your actions and words. Patience is a virtue. 

Secondly, don't trust others easily and although people always say they "believe what they see", sometimes what you see isn't enough. Take your time, take a step at a time, listen to all points of views and come to a conclusion. Sometimes, it's also, as cliche as it is, "better to have a best friend who shares everything, tears and joy, with you than to have many friends who you can't lean on at all." 

Thirdly, what people always say, "forgive and forget". Yeah I'd like to emphasize that line too, but in a different approach. Although forgiving may be hard, but it's always best to do so. I have managed to forgive everything that has happened since the year is ending REALLY SOON and after forgiving someone, trust me, you'll feel so much better and the rock that has been holding onto you will be lifted. NOW, is the forgetting part. Forgiving is definitely better than forgetting. I know forgetting is REALLY REALLY tough, I'm not boasting, but i can remember things that happened when i was as young as 4, maybe because many things leave so much impacts on me, or just because i have good memory. Anyway, when people say forget, they mean for you to put the past behind you and move on with life, because life is short. Yes, "life is too short for everything, cherish every single thing you have." When i was younger, an adult once told me "forgive and forget, everything will be over soon" and i told myself, i will never do that. Now that I've come to my senses and realise what this means in the adult world, yeah, forgive everything and put everything behind you. 

Let me share a few quotes: 

"Everything happens for a reason."

"Never regret anything you do, if you will don't" 

"The future is like a letter, waiting to be opened."

"Do you want to know why i use a knife? Guns are too quick. You can't savour all the... little emotions. In... you see, in their last moments, people show you who they really are." -The Joker (Heath Ledger) from the Dark Knight. Think about this quote and decide what you wanna do from now on. 

THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO'S BEEN BY MY SIDE. LOVE YOU ALL. HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAVE A REALLY REALLY GREAT YEAR AHEAD. I YEARN TO SHARE GREAT MOMENTS WITH GREAT PEOPLE HEHE. GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE HAVING THEIR MAJOR EXAMS (INCLUDING MYSELF HAHAH) AND EXAMS. DO EXTREMELY WELL AND DO YOURSELVES AND EVERYONE PROUD. LOVE YOURSELF (gonna blog on that soon) AND CHERISH EVERYTHING!!! 

 By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRENNA ONG. (I'm not late hehe) 

I'm super sorry for the dull post, I'm too lazy to add colours and thr's not much time left!!  

Catching up

Now playing - I heard it through the grapevine by Alex and Sierra OMG THEIR VOICES ARE SO PERFECT IM SPEECHLESS WITH EVERY PERFORAMCE OF THEIRS, their covers for Gravity and Say my name etc are very good too!! I seriously urge people to listen to them, they are so good.

So i finally decided to blog after about 11 days?? Was so busy catching up with all my dramas and lazy to even do my work and all. Since i spent about 2 hours completing the previous post and it was really late, i got lazy too hahahaha. Yup, I'm a lazy ass. Okay, just gonna sum up whatever i did recently.

Anyway, i watched 'I hear your voice', watched a few episodes of Running man and rewatched them with my cousin, yep we watched twice of an episode, and i watched 'The Heirs'. I hear your voice is really really good and the first episode made me so damn anxious i got hooked up to it and totally love it. i rate it 9.7/10. The Heirs was really good too, but the ending was disappointing, really expected a lot more and yeah it's still good. i rate it 9/10. Currently watching 'Bel Ami', otherwise known as 'Pretty Man', Jang Geun Suk is so hot hehe, not forgetting Lee Jong Suk from i hear your voice and ALL the young males in Heirs hehe. Bel Ami now has 8 episodes and the 9th episode is gonna air this Thurs!! Cant wait. I'm also watching 'Prime Minister and I', the female lead is YooNa from Girls' Generation, I'm not a fan of theirs but she's really good in acting, this drama now has 2 episodes and the 3rd is gonna be up on tues/wed (?) i'm not quite sure, but this drama is really thrilling, how she met the Prime Minister and how her journalist life goes, etc. 

so yup, when December started, i dyed my hair, hahahah it was kinda a success?? Cause i dyed it with my friend and since it's those cheap dye, our hair colours can only be seen during exposure to sunlight, and cant see shit indoors. 

this was exposed to a little sunlight at the balcony, it was intense violet-red by Loreal and since my hair is black, i can say it turned out quite well, except for the fact that we cant see it indoors :( 

so i was quite satisfied, until no one noticed it, cause i am always indoors! sigh

Forgot when but i went for wholesales with Cheryl again and although i didnt buy much, i really spent a lot, damn, spent like 200++?? just this 3 to 4 weeks. and yeah i decided to let those clothes i bought at the wholesale be my clothes for Chinese New Year and since I'm gonna be quite busy when school reopens. This year's theme for CNY would be : FLORAL. i bought a new pair of high cuts online and it's in floral designs as well. Honestly i didnt plan it, it was all a coincidence, i totally forgot that i bought that pair of shoes until it arrived and i received the news. I bought 1 new pair of flats too hehe it's maroon (yay) and new heels are maroon as well hahahah. All in all, i have 3 pairs of shoes for CNY EHEHE IM SO EXCITED. ANG PAO ANG PAO!! Which kid doesnt love Ang Baos?? 

So this maroon jacket/sweater was among the clothes i bought at wholesale and its material is really good!! Got it at a really low price and it's kinda like wool inside? Keeps me really warm and yeah i love it so much. It's so big and yeah i love big jackets, they give me a great sense of security. As you can see my hair colour really cant be seen sigh

Yep, that's my OOTD for today, was really happy when my hair colour could be seen HAHAHAH 

We watched 'Everybody's business' and honestly, it wasn't as good as expected, but seriously, Aloysious Pang was so hot i kept spazzing. That was my dinner, prawn paste fried rice, it's a really big plate, i was so full, it's like bigger than a plate of spaghetti at Pastamania. 

While we waited for Trenna 

Damn, i think i look super old..... gotta maintain my face argh, anyways, this is Kaylee 

Hehe that's my cousin, Trenna 

These were the nicest pictures we took for the day 

This post seems to have more pictures than words hahahah good, then i wont bore people out again. So back to talking about school work, sigh, i only managed to complete Geog, Emath and Chem. finished up Geog and Emath in 2-3 questions cause i left them out MORE THAN A MONTH AGO and finisthed Chem in two days althought they could be done in 2 hours. Then there's English, Chinese, Amath, Physics, SS and Lit. I'm left with a week to finish everything hahahahah but time to catch up with some beauty sleep now i'm so tired and need get energised to start my work tomorrow, hope i won't procrastinate any longer, been procrastinating for more than a week and i have done nothing productive. Damn, i havent started revising, yep although it seems otherwise, I'm really really scared that i cant finish everything on time and  that O's are next year, I'm not ready for the batte......

8 days KunMing trip

Okay... Sorry dear readers that it took me more than a month to update on everything.... i've been quite lazy and busy on last minute unimportant things. It's been months since i typed on my laptop keyboard and boy, i'm super upset at the rate i'm typing, it's so goddamn slow to me.... On the bright side, i've always been a fast typer so hehehe

Okay apologies aside, this is gonna be a super long post. Apparently i had typed everything out detailedly from day 1 to day 3 cause the bus rides in China were really long, taking at least an hour for reach ride, so i had plenty of time to type, these 3 days took me half an hour, i did try to continue but i got lazy and i really wanted to spend my time sleeping. Many things have happened in the past month (obviously), so i'll be splitting the posts up and there may be 2,3 or 4?? I'm not so sure myself. 

Don't worry many pictures are awaiting ahead and i hope this super long post won't force one to enter one's sweet dreams! 

2NE1's MISSING YOU IS PLAYING ON MY PHONE NOW! The song is so good omfg their vocals!!

                                                            Okay so this was before we boarded the plane for Kunming, AHLIAN

Day 1: So...... we had a 4-hour plane ride that was awkward as hell especially when the people who sat around us weren't close to us.... or let's just say that we don't even know one another. The plane ride was rather long, with the air stewardesses serving us food time and again and all we actually did was sleep and eat, which was rather boring.
We had dinner at some isolated area and it was really cold there. The food served were really salty and oily and we didn't finish 90% of the 10-course meal. Yup, it was rather bad and we wasted a large amount of food. We headed to the hotel and it was really dark and cold outside. There were security guards waiting for us outside the hotel. Upon reaching, they lugged our luggages in to the lobby and i was kinda shocked. Lights out was at around 12?? And i ended up turning in at almost 1.

This was the night of Day 1 and we bunked in Joanne and Francis' room cause all 4 of us freaked out and shit happened in Haziqah and my room, it was filled with so much insanity and superstition i almost went crazy. 

Day 2: morning call was at 6.30a.m. and we were really tired. It was our first day at the local school and i was really excited. We left for the lobby after having breakfast and it was still quite early, so we decided to ask the receptionist whether we could have the password for the Wi-Fi and then headed for the school. We were so excited when we realised that we could use the wifi and were really making good use of it. We walked for around 50mins-1hour to reach the local school and were already panting the hell out of ourselves. I saw the children there and they were really excited to see us and you could see that their clothes were worn out and really dirty. Some of us really needed to pee and we headed for the toilet. What shocked us was that you could smell the strong stench about 3 metres away from the toilet itself. We had no choice but to use medicated oil to cover the smell of the toilet. However, you could still smell the stench when you are in the toilet and it's really really strong. There was no door, no flushing system, no nothing. It was just a canal in each 'half-cubicle' and a lot crap were in there. We mouthed '1,2,3' before squatting down to pee. It was really smelly and i couldn't take it. We met and interacted with the kids there but it was all weird and awkward as we had to speak in Mandarin suddenly and just play games. There wasn't much of a language barrier but it was really understanding their accents on the first day. We chased them and played with them to the extent that we actually perspired. Yup, i perspired in my thermal and it was really crazy. We didn't really teach the children much except playing games and coming up with impromtu games when we didn't know how to explain and play. Many of us got letters and no i received none at all, i was really sad. Nonetheless, i had to keep my spirits up and be energetic for the next two days to make a really impactful impactful in their lives. The day ended and the food (lunch cooked by the school teachers and dinner by hotel) was a lot better compared to day 1. The teachers brought us to Walmart, opposite the hotel and we were so excited, going to a mart at night in the cooling weather, and obviously it meant extra snacks for us! Yup, overnight and all. I'm lazy to elaborate.

This was day 2 morning, the air was so cooling hehe i was so excited after receiving wifi i took this photo 

The path that led us to the children's school, filled with so much memories

First trip down to Walmart! 

Day 3: same thing in the morning and we rushed down to the lobby right after having breakfast  i was really excited to be able to use wifi there. Like, who isn't?? Even the teachers were desperate for them. 

We headed for the school and started greeting all the kids there and tried to get closer to them and played more games. In the morning, we had to teach the children more about hygiene and our group was in charge of teaching the children how to wash their hands, the 8 steps and all, but we broke them down to 4 steps for the kids to understand. It was rather easy, they learnt really fast and mastered the steps by the end of the lessons (probably because we rewarded them with stickers). After the lessons they were really washing their hands at the basins near their classroom and outside the toilet. Apparently, there's only 2 basins in the school. We had lunch and went back to teach the children simple English words. There were 5 groups of us and 3 groups went to pluck persimmons and 2 groups of us were left to teach 4 classes of the children and we had to split into pairs. It wasn't easy as 2 of our group were Malays and we had to partner and non-mandarin speaker each and it was difficult to communicate with the children when we didn't know some of the Mandarin words. The teachers prepared us to go pluck persimmons next, near the school. We climbed a hill and it was very steep, i almost fell a couple of times and was really making a lot noise at the back cause i was really scared. There was a muddy area and NO, i didn't want to dirty my shoes. It was really cool. We had to use this really long stick, about 3 metres in length and use the split in the front of the stick to poke one the branches and then twist it, it was really fun when we had the strength to do it and bring it down. The feeling was really good. I guess the day ended similarly as the day before, walking back down to the coach and back to hotel for dinner. There was an impromtu decision and the teachers decided that some of us (i wasn't one of them) visit Walmart again to get necessities for the school. They spent a long time getting the things needed and even paid for the extra, how sincere of them! Things included were detergent for the toilet, mops, long brushes, soaps, hand sanitizers, toothbrushes and many more. Then again, back to sleep.

Day 4: (okay i was lazy to re-read the day 1 -3 entry so if i repeated.... i'm sorry!) 

So that was the last day of going to the school, that meant no more long bus rides, no more walking up the hill, no more panting our asses away, no more long talks along away, no more playing with the kids, no more seeing them. I'm gonna sum everything up for the last day cause many things happened and i'm gonna write about the impactful moments, which i have at least 3 on hand. Firstly, if i did mention before, i received only 1 letter from the previous 2 days and on the last day i received about 15?? i forgot the number but it was really happy! partly because i received the most letters on that day (from what i saw, idek but yay) but mostly it was due to the content. Wei Shan and I wrote our names on the blackboard (YES THEY USE BLACKBOARD AND CHALK OMFG SO COOL I KEPT WRITING IT WAS SO COOL YOU DONT EVEN GET TO DO THAT IN SINGAORE), and i didn't want the kids to forget me so i went to each of them and basically asked "WHAT'S MY NAME???" and they replied "JIA XIN JIE JIE" omfg so cuteeeeeee!!! and yeah they have an accent and it was totally hard to understand them at first but as time went by we got to understand their accents and i felt cool (hahaha just kidding). For example when we say someone's name as "xiao li" they pronounce it as "xiao lei" hahahah. and yeah, all the kids remembered my name even hours after the last lesson. I was sooooo touched, they remembered my name, i'm not sure about now but at least they did, for that few hours and what's embarrassing is that i know none of theirs. I know this is random but i'm getting hyped up cause i'm typing faster and faster hahah. Back to the contents in the letters, most of them folded hearts and wrote stuff inside like "i love you jia xin jie jie" and my heart melted, awwww i did make an impact on the kids, i did it, i made a difference in the children's lives..... i was so touched. As we were preparing to leave, the children actually lined in in 2 straight lines (we were totally oblivious to the situation cause we were all looking in the opposite direction and were busy clearing our things up and so on. Shit happened when we actually turn our heads to their direction, we were all speechless and actually thought all the kids went home cause the last thing we saw was them running out of the school. We were so touched, i dont even know what hit my heart, all i knew was i wasn't the only one, but all of us were crying our hearts out, it was such an overwhelming situation that i didn't know what to say. If you can see, i took the most photos on the last day...... 

the kids when they were queuing up for lunch 

all the kids were my favourites there, so this was the group of children i was closest to ??

all of them are the oldest in the school and they were the children i worked with mostly and i was obviously attached to the entire class. This group of boys was the most mischievous, they were a great bunch though, heheheh hugged all of them and had a group hug before this photo. It was cute how they were shy to say "i love you" awwww

LOOK WHAT JOANNE BEATRICE LEE TAUGHT THE KIDS HAHAHAH it's okay, #YOLO #SWAG 

both of them are really cute, the one in red is Wen Jian, he's 7 and my cutie pie, i sound like a pedophile now hahahah but he's really cute omg love him so much he's so innocent. 

3rd trip down to Walmart, kinda begged the teachers for that, only like 5 of us went?? can't remember, but it was one of the best moments, Jorine, Sam Lim and I were like in our own world, throwing everything into the our tote bags that we didnt have enough bags to hold our items Mrs Tan had to donate her plastic bag to us and it still wasn't enough HAHAHAAHA so much food and i even bought a few items for Sam but i spent less than 20SGD!!! the kisses were like $2+, it's like $4.95 in SG wtf. Oh and i kinda introduced everyone that cup noodle looking thing, it's actually powdered milk tea with nata de coco, you just need to add hot water in, it's a must have when you're in China!! i only drink from this brand cause it's the best!

mountain climbing, we stripped our thermal half-way up, THE KC WAY HAHAHAHA i was perspiring so much i don't even know

what happens when your friends get hyped up, the two of them are so cute hahaha

CAVE WOOOOOOOOOOO

MINIONS YAY

The bus buddies, we sat like that for 8 days, no joke. Everyone took so many photos of everyone sleeping, sigh
(left to right: Wei Shan, Me, Sam, Jorine) OH LOOK AFIFAH PHOTOBOMBED

woo must show off my photography skills

at the airport in China before boarding, Chiara hugged me so tight i couldn't breathe and my hands were shaking so bad, i almost fell HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH 

FIRST PHOTO WHEN WE LANDED BITCHES

HEY HEY JUMPSHOT YO

candid by Wei Shan, i look mutated though

WOAH I SPENT ALMOST 2 HOURS WRITING ON THIS POST GAHHHHH yay i'm done with this 

Roles and responsibilities

9 days have passed and 2 days ago was a stop to my week of doing the household chores. They have indeed..... been quite a chore. The pass week have been really exhausting for me, spending at least 3 hours a day doing the housework is definitely no joke. Wake up, get my ass to school, go home, do my homework and slack, start doing housework at 6, bathe, sleep, I wake up with muscle aches all over, and the vicious cycle repeats, inclusive of hanging out the wet clothes and then bringing them back in whenever it rains, it was definitely not easy especially with the kind of weather Singapore has been experiencing for the past week.

Time has passed really fast and as i looked back at what i had been doing for the past week, i realised i have developed a better understanding of what mum has been doing... since 13 years ago, every year, 365 days.....

As i was mopping the floor a few days ago, it felt as though the entire house depended on me to clean it and that it felt like i have grown up, and i had to be more responsible and made sure the house was clean without mum's presence. There was the pressure and something kept telling me that no matter how tired i was, i had to get going and do it. I began to feel how mum have been feeling everyday except that she pmses really crazily.

So they came back from HK on sat, in the wee hours and i had to go to my granny's at 1plus in the morn and only slept at 4am. The pictures are all at the bottom and im lazy to rearrange them cause i'm blogging through my phone. It's 12plus in the morn mind you.

Those goodies weren't just all. All the food were kept everywhere else in the house so i gave up and the clothes were not much... so yup. The new Hello Kitty lip balm is really cute!! My aunt got it for me awww hehe and the Guess watch is really pretty! Mum told me it was at least 200 SGD... WOAH. (Ok la, i find it expensive can) 

I had many things in mind but since i forgot, oh well.

Went down to get all the necessities for my trip (will elaborate later on) near my house yest afternoon. Thank Heavens i live near many convenience stores like Watsons, Guardian, supermarkets like NTUC and Giant express and those value shops too, almost everything i needed could be found, in fact, everything was. So back to the topic, i was almost done with getting all my things and i saw my cousins and my uncle.

And.... my uncle treated my cousins and i to some good food woohoo! We headed for Geylang for it's most famous 黑鸡汤, which is Black Chicken Soup for direct translation and it's known for the amount of herbal inside and i really love herbal related food hehe the soup was just sooooooo good.

Spent 1 hour plus packing everything into my luggage and went to my granny's again as my youngest aunt came to visit us with all her children which in other words, are my cousins, they are so cute aww!! And they were so wild and rough i almost went crazy.

That sums up almost everything and today (technically it's tues but i take it as a mon) went pretty fast. Woke up at 10plus in the morn (considered early for me, with the fact that i wake up at 2pm usually) and nua-ed in bed till 12plus and decided to head down for lunch. Came home feeling really tired and fell asleep till 5plus in the evening. Continued reading my book and did some last minute packing and yup i was done!

Getting ready to sleep now and i'm sooooo excited for my trip tmr! Gonna have to wake up at 9am and get ready and reach the airport by 11am. I'm heading for Kunming, China. It's in Yunnan and IT'S WINTER SEASON YAYYYYY so happy we wont be able to perspire as much as we do in Singapore hahaha. Checked my packing list at least 10 times to make sure i didnt miss anything out, yup it's ridiculous, but better be prepared than not. This trip is a school-based CIP trip to help those poor kids in Kunming :'( hearing about their lives there really soften my heart..... Hopefully this trip would leave an impact on them and make a difference in their lives. KUNMING HERE I COME!!! Gonna have to shop till i drop on the last day cause that's the only shopping day!!! And the first thing you must always do is bargain!! at least 80% off else your head would be on the floor at the end of the day. The first trip to China made me so pissed after realising i had been cheated quite a few times! I bought this set of chopsticks for like 90yuan (~16SGD) and i saw the exact same set at 10yuan (~2SGD) somewhere else!!! My blood was totally boiling. So this time round, BARGAIN BARGAIN BARGAIN.

Gonna blog in a week and post lots of pictures (hopefully) hehe BYE!!

I wouldn't regret

So many things have been running through my mind for a period of time but since this would be exposed to the public, i decided to just say something which i consider short and my thoughts.

The past week hadn't been a smooth one, with a thing happening after another. Before i forget.... gotta thank Cheryl for the cookies hehe <3

Mum got some M&S candies for the weekend and yes being fatty me and my fatty brother, we finished the chocolate eclairs in a day. They were really good and got myself a box of strawverry and cream drops. They were really good.

Weekend passed like no other and today would be the fifth day i'm doing the housework, that includes sweeping, mopping, washing ALL the dishes, washing the clothes, drying them and other necessities. Reached home at 6 after school and lunch today and now i'm dead tired..... so housework.... at night since there's finally a day's break tmr yayers ↖(^▽^)↗

Seen enough heard enough.... and i've had enough. So many things made me feel horrible and horribly horrible.

Got myself a new cover for free worth $39.90 today hehe it's really pretty! Leaving all the photos at the bottom and i have no idea why my phone rotated them.

So..... back to why i have so much to blog today...... came to know about all those nasty remarks and really?? People are always like "haters gonna hate" and all i have to say is that we shouldn't be bothered with them. The more we think about those things they've said and how much they hate you... why not let them go and move on? Yeah i know it's not easy, but people still do them everywhere. Yeah it sure hurts, but i've had so much i wouldn't, and i give up bothering with people like them. Thanks haters, for making me stronger and allowing me to know that i've safely endured all your shit.

I'm so tired of everything, physically, emotionally and mentally. Though times are hard but i guess we should get over them with happy things which make our day. Little things like a hug from your friend could brighten up your day. Sometimes, pouring your heart out to someone would help too. Thanks for being by my side all the time, i won't name you but you guys know who you are.

Someone told me "i guess you're suffering from depression ya" HAHAHAHAHA how sarcastic.

I admit i may be oversensitive at times and that i would overthink.... but who doesn't?? And seriously, if you people out there hate soemone so much, i suggest you go tell that person (it might not have to be verbal, it could be through letters too, and PEN DOWN YOUR DAMN NAME) i would rather know who you are and why you hate someone so much, there's definitely a reason to it, some people prefer to say "i have no reason for hating so and so" but REALLY? REALLY?? I suppose it's pure jealousy then. Sometimes yeah people get annoying and you just hate them, but i dont see any reason for you to just hate on someone and make them an outcast and esp, make them feel like some fucktard. And i can't stand it when people get bullied, not just physically but in any other way, like doing something to their bags or whatever. Haha i get rough with words and i swear 90% of the criticisms i've made are just for the sake of making them, i don't usually mean it. Now you know. And i was just saying, not that i've received the above mentioned (the bullying part i mean).

It's ridiculous how people are so full of themselves and think that they should go around hurting others in any sort. Wait till you experience them. Like i always say, "i believe in Karma" because what goes around DOES come around. 

I've received comments like "you're ah lian" (female gangster??), "you're so step" , "you're so emo". Honestly, i AM NOT emo.... i just have a negative perspective of life and step?? How? In what way?? And since "ah lian" has been a norm, i just i'll just accept the way things are and continue accepting.

School again

Finally a post on today's events, today was pretty short.... 

Rewind back to last night...... 

When i was preparing to start doing my assignments at about 10 last night, there was this piercing pain in my abdomen area and it felt like someone was stabbing me in the stomach. I went to the toilet in case shit was gonna happen and it did. Vomited twice and had diarrhea (went to the toilet 4 times in a row...) and i felt like i was dying. My entire body was literally drained of energy and the pain was a killer, it was soooo bad i wanted to just die. Felt so sick and was hesitating whether i should turn up for school today. 

Eventually, i turned up for school cause i didn't want to miss lessons and came to realise that today's lessons weren't that important afterall. It's okay, at least i was safe and shit didn't happen again. 

Miss Chai totally understands us and reasoned that we wouldn't be able to learn anything new since exams were over and we "did quite well". 

Ms Chai: How many of you are not happy with your results (English)? 
*about half the class rose their hands*
Ms Chai: How many of you wants to have English lesson?
*none of us rose our hands*
Ms Chai: Ironic right? hahaha I'm gonna let you guys watch a movie. It's Simon Birch. 

AND SIMON BIRCH IS A REALLY GOOD MOVIE AND IT'S SO FUNNY!!! I totally died laughing in class. We had Chinese and Social Studies before recess but i was so tired i fell asleep during SS again and yes i feel guilty towards Mrs Tan but i'm ALWAYS tired so..... i know that isn't an excuse but i already slept. English was after recess and followed by Biology but we Physics girls had a free period and i suspect it's a mistake done by the school. Oh well, at least i thought i spent my free period wisely. Last lesson before school ended was Elective Literature and they spent a full hour lecturing us and going through the exam scripts again. 

Managed to complete all the KunMing stuff with my team mates during the meeting again yay. But now we're gonna have to get going with the activities planned ahead for the kids in KunMing. Hope we're gonna have loads of fun there! Getting really excited!! :P