Stay real

Someone once asked me, what i would have done if i were given just $100,000 and to be very honest, i really have no idea. I mean, having receive an amount like this over nothing would definitely feel good, right? I can't help feel extremely lost at this. 

I was taken aback, but after giving it much thought, i still can't come to an agreement with myself. Asked twice, and twice i answered i would split them into quarts and gave them to my parents and brother then myself. What would i do then? With the remaining $25K i have. "I'm gonna do whatever i want to, splurge, travel, eat and just, whatever". 

Really? Rachel really?? If this $25K was to be translated into five years worth of life, and i would have just five years left, what would i REALLY do?

Five years from now, seems legit, seems like a long time. Is it really? Five years is pretty short, when i have my to finish my education and when i finally graduate from University (that's if i can actually make the cut HAHA), almost five years would be up. Now that's fast. 

Eighteen years into my life and i've always told myself that i should really do whatever i want, lead my life however i want because life is too short and i wouldn't have time for regrets, AT ALL. Looking back, yes i've done so, but more than half the time, i spend reminiscing, feeling regretful over certain things, overthinking many things, wasting time, not studying and working hard enough, not getting enough sleep, irregular meals and the list might as well go on for the next 10 hours. 

Do what you do best, even if it means you have to step out of your comfort zone because it's really not easy for one to just be comfortable in your own skin overnight. Trust me, be yourself, be who you truly are, do things the way you want (i don't mean drilling your opinions into others because sometimes we make wrong decisions too), ALWAYS LISTEN to what others have to say, improve on yourself, and most importantly, be happy and learn to accept and love yourself. 

If you were to have five years to get your shit together and learn to be yourself, even if you have just one day to be your whole self, you won't regret. So, ask yourself, what you really wanna do with your life and think about how you wanna live it. Be brave.